belongingness:

I think about you often. I wonder who you are, what you look like, how your voice sounds, how tall you are, what you smell like, where you are. I wonder if you’re thinking about me too. I wonder if we know each other, or if I’ll meet you tomorrow, or if it’s going to be a few more years. Whenever it is, whoever you are, I’m excited and anxious and I miss you. I know it sounds silly to miss someone you’ve never met, but I do. 

Sometimes, I hear a song and more than anything I want you to be with me, listening to it too. I want to cuddle up to you and sing along or dance around all goofy and cutesy. I wonder what our wedding will be like and what songs we’ll play during the ceremony and reception. I wonder what music you like and if you ever do the same sorts of things when listening to music.

I guess this all seems sort of sappy and girly and I know I’m posting it to my tumblr where a bunch of people can read it and I’m sure a bunch of them are rolling their eyes at me and scrolling past this, which is totally cool, but I just wanted to say all this to you. And since I don’t have you here with me in any way shape or form that I’m aware of right now… this is the best method I’ve found for doing that.